Some days feel impossible. Things can get so heavy. How can I possibly keep doing this? I hate everything in my life. My job sucks. I can’t do anything right. I suck. No one likes me or wants to hang out with me. My coworkers hate me. My own kids don’t like me. I am so insignificant. I’m just old and angry. I just want to quit.
I could go on and on. And today I am feeling all of those things. I’m having a rough day. Work really sucked. I’m not sleeping well and I’m feeling exhausted and burnt out. But here’s the really big important thing – I acknowledge that this is how I’m feeling at the moment. I’ve been here before, and unfortunately, I’ll probably be here again at some point.
Life is cyclical. It goes in cycles. And probably more so for women. But everyone goes through these cycles. There will be highs and there will be lows. We would all love to be riding on that high every day! Man wouldn’t that be great! And if we could just remember and focus on those highs it might make the lows a little easier.
But we all forget and get in that rut and maybe even get stuck there for a while. We may get that negative soundtrack running through our heads. Life just seems almost unbearable. But this is not new. It’s not the first time you’ve ever been down, is it? It’s actually familiar. And that’s why we need to acknowledge all the garbage. Yes, I am having a bad day. My negative soundtrack is so loud I can’t focus on anything else. I just want to quit!
So, I will quit. I’ll quit the moment. I’ll quit momentarily. I acknowledge that I am feeling down. I’m feeling lost. OMG here’s that big scary word. I’m depressed. But I’ve been all that before. I know there will be a high point again. This is not my final destination. It’s just an uncomfortable layover I have to get past. And by acknowledging it, I can let it go and get past it.
So be good and be gentile with yourself when you need to. It’s okay to get through a rough day at work and go straight home and put on your jammies. That’s what I did today. I have a huge list of things I needed to do when I got home. But for the moment I quit. I’m not going to stress it. I’m not going to worry about what I didn’t do. I’m going to quit the moment and allow myself to rest and heal. I’ll go back to kicking ass tomorrow.